First the good news, all is well on the cancer front I am still no sign of cancer. I however have the lovely sacral fractures, that are not getting any better. I now question whether or not they were caused by radiation or maybe from the Lovenox shots I take every day.
A scan from last year showed I had ostiopina (sp,) so maybe this was coming regardless; it would have been nice if someone had told me…I could have been addressing it all along.
I am now on crutches for the next 8 weeks. Crutches seem to come in only one kind, (at least the one my insurance covers,) UGLY! I know that is a stupid thing, but my hair is coming back but it is now thin and mouse colored, not mousy brown which I could deal with, but an ugly grey, it used to be very thick and a mahogany color. (if it stays thin like this I will keep it very short and just wear my wigs.) Now I get to hobble around on ugly crutches too. 
I am thinking I will just takes some paint markers and go to town on them. I am waiting for inspiration.
I was doing very strenuous work and it likely contributed to my problems. I am probably never going be able to do my job at the level I was before.
I am feeling pretty discouraged. I wish my life had a reset button, so when you get stuck, like some video games, you could hit the button try again.
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